Thursday, February 26, 2009
I forget what it feels like to be meant for somebody.
"There's too many things I haven't done yet
There's too many sunsets I haven't seen."
I am okay.
I am oh. kay. After talking with a good friend for some time about relationships, I realize just how far I've come. I often don't give myself credit for the steps I have taken, but maybe it is now time. I think back to junior year, about all the mess I've allowed myself to endure, and I have come out of it with a deeper understanding of how people work, and how much confidence and respect I now have for myself. Everything in life is a learning experience and a chance to grow, even if that growing seems unbearably painful at first. At first it will feel like your heart has been ripped from your very insides, but in time you will come to find that instead of letting someone else love your heart, you have learned to love it yourself. And in that comes deep satisfaction and determination.
I can't believe it's already March. Bring on the sunshine.
Monday, February 23, 2009
"I’ve passed this night dancing on coals
I blew away the sleep that was in my eyes
I counted the stars 'til my finger burned."
My heart hurts. I wish there was someone I could talk to. Art is my only refuge, where I can understand myself. I wish I had something to post up.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Pick me up, oh, from the bottom
Up to the top, love, everyday.
Pay no mind to taunts or advances
I'll take chances on everyday
Left to right, up and down love
Push up love love, everyday.
Jump in the mud, oh,
Get your hands dirty with -
Love it up, oh - everyday.
All you need is -
All you want is -
All you need is love.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Courtesy of Wordle.net - click to enlarge.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Will you share your life with me for the next ten minutes?
For the next ten minutes - we can handle that.
We could watch the waves, we could watch the sky,
Or just sit and wait as the time ticks by.
And if we make it 'til then,
Can I ask you again for another ten?
And if you in turn agree to the next ten minutes -
And the next ten minutes - 'til the morning comes.
Then just holding you
might compel me to ask you for more.
"It's funny how we become increasingly aware of just how many people inhabit this earth when they are every person except the one we are hoping to see."
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away
You have stolen my heart."
Red wine, dark chocolate, and painting. What a wonderful evening.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
The very fabric of my life feels different cloaked around my shoulders. I am happy, but I lack the deep-settled feeling of contentment that I had last year - a part of my life that seems to have happened ages ago. I think, more than any one thing, I miss the context you created in my life.
So many times I have wished for a time machine.
I find it ironic that I need to keep reminding myself of what day it is; I keep forgetting - you stand in the way.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Some people want to fill the world with silly love songs.
Well, what's wrong with that? I'd like to know.
Sometimes I believe it is possible. And I hold tight to it.
Friday, February 6, 2009
This weekend is looking exceptional. Tonight was wonderful Erin reflection chill movie night, and tomorrow I will be getting up early to have diner breakfast, coffee, and cinnabuns, and then I will make art all day long. Afterward, I'll head over to hang out, make dinner for some excellent friends, and watch Star Wars. <3
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
It's snowing again, and I have so much to do.
A few favourites from DJ and my NYC photoshoot.
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