Wednesday, July 25, 2012

I am a Painter.

I have tried to write this blogpost at least 5 times, and I could never really say what I wanted to say.

So I'm going to sum it up.

I have been stretching myself too thin, trying to do everything. I can't be a graphic designer, and a photographer, and a jewelry maker, and an illustrator, and a blogger. I've just been realizing that I simply can't. If I stretch myself to all these areas, though they all hold a special place in my heart, I will never be able to focus on what I really want to be doing.

I have been turning the idea of monetizing my blog over and over again in my head. But I don't want to end up as a slave to gathering arbitrary followers by reposting unoriginal content. I don't want to post just to post. I want this blog to be a genuine experience, and for once, a place on the internet where I don't have to care about the numbers.

I love to paint and illustrate. That's what I want to do with my life. This is not an end to my blog, but rather a reconsidering of the direction it is going in.

In the spirit of the love of painting, I have created a work based on my favourite character from A Game of Thrones by George R.R. Martin; Daenerys Targaryen, The Unburnt, The Mother of Dragons.

Of all the characters in Martin's series, Daenerys is by far the character with whom I identify the most. I can't say that I am like her; but rather, that she serves as a symbol of strength and determination for me.

As corny as it sounds, the story and the characters have seen me through a fair share of trials in the last few years of my life. Dany, above the others, always reminds me to be honourable, and to do what is right in spite of all the reasons not to. She is a character that gives selflessly, always seeks after wisdom; who is loyal to her people and her friends, and who continuously plants one foot in front of the other and keeps going, no matter how desperate the situation.

She's also a badass.

So I wanted to give her her due and paint something for a character that has taught me quite a bit about the kind of person I strive to be.

As always, thank you for reading.


  1. i used to feel the same way about blogging in the past. i was so worried that no one will visit and/or comment on my blog if i post daily. but since i love to blog, i needed to let go of those expectations and just blog for the sake of blogging. and i am more about establishing meaningful relationships with other bloggers instead of the numbers. it's more fun that way. :-)

    and that artwork is superb! and yes, keep doing art because it makes you happy. <3 :-)

  2. I am happy you found the direction in which you want to go and I would hate to see this blog go (so please don't kill it haha). I'm always looking forward to your updates and your art! :)

  3. It can sure be hard to manage it all some days...I'm right there with ya!
    I love that your painted seems to glow!

  4. Prioritizing is a great step forward. Your artwork is truly amazing!
    I'm very attached to my blog, everything I do revolves around my blog, so I guess one could say I'm a Blogger foremost :)

  5. Ah, yes, I know all about stretching myself too thin. Sometimes you just need to let things to, or just let them be hobbies. I'm glad you figured out that painting is what you really want to do, because your work is amazing!

  6. I so identify with you. I started my blog as a source of inspiration and to keep myself focused and motivated to doing what I love. Then I opened my Etsy store and somehow I seemed to have stepped off my path. Thanks so much for this post. I love your art.

  7. i love your blog and even if you decide to post something once a month will be fine :) just do what makes YOU happy.

    have a wonderful day!

  8. I know exactly how you feel, and it's good to focus on one thing instead of doing everything at once, even though there is a moment for every expression and that is still as significant as focusing on one area. Your artwork is beautiful and I love how it is also part of your journey and what you have learnt has also been taken from what the painting is about. Very happy to have stopped by, and wishing you well in all that you do. x

  9. awesome! It's true haven't seen you put much painting up here in a while, but really sweet!
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