And who'd have thought that confidence could die? Not me.

I am losing sleep. I've never been like this before.

Why did God give me talent if I'm not meant to work in the industry? If I'm supposed to just "get a job to have a job"? Am I supposed to throw in the towel on my dreams? How can I admit defeat when I've worked so hard and sacrificed so much and come so far?

I'm exhausted.