It's been eighteen days since I first held you.

I am so tired of this cycle of getting my hopes up, only to be disappointed again.

Can I ever expect to be impressed? Or should I just resign myself to disappointment for the rest of my life?

I want to cry, but nothing comes out; I guess I could cry if I was surprised... but I'm not.

One day I hope to look back on this post and shake my head at my lack of faith.